On facebook even after carefully filtering people out so that only the close and lets face it - the funny, could see my post, I had a limited audience that I could control their viewership per say, I still felt disconnected. I was aware of the content I put on it, I was pretty much only uploading kid pictures and statuses mainly because taking care of the house and kids leaves only one hand typing available. So my thoughts for the most part stayed that way, mine and for me to talk to myself about them. I try to not be controversial on the facebook because I know I have friends of many different beliefs, politics, marital statuses and I didnt want them to think I was against anyone or anything. But on the the facebook I mostly tried to not overcrowd it, I feel my friends were already tired of baby pictures and the likes so I tried to keep mine to a minimun of say a few a day hahaha.
I also allowed myself to believe that if I stayed connected to my friends via facebook I was fulfilling my friend role and I have come to notice that I am not. I do not hear from some of my friends and I think its because our relationship on the facebook is very superficial. I only post the happy or funny pictures or the positive statuses and not the real world stuff, and when I do it feels as though facebook has gone silent. There is this shame for not posting only the good which I find incredibly discriminatory in facebook.
I loved my George Takei, Im going to miss him the most of the things I subscribed to, and also getting all the news, although Im not going to miss those. Im tired of them, Im happy for their content, I like to stay up to date about the events around the world as I go about my daily life BUT, yes, the big but, as much as I can handle paw less puppies, bees disappearing, and the likes to a degree, I cant handle what it tells me about humanity. Im tired of people not only disagreeing but insulting each other, people saying children deserve the death penalty for something they did as a child. Facebook and its members are so disconnected with the world and humanity that it seems too little to just "like" an article about a new species dying in hopes a friend would see it. We are too busy hugging out guns, saying they are stupid, to realize we are putting so many thing in between us to separate us and specially Facebook.
I want to raise my kids to respect this world and its inhabitants. I feel I will have a hard time doing this with facebook, making everything
But facebook has become hard to replace, my family is there and that is the reason I have gone back, because they want to see the pictures of the kids and that is why I put them there. So, im being a little selfish, Im taking this away from my family and friends who could easily enjoy the pictures of my kids and our family shenanigans for a medium such as this where I can practice my writing skills, cause Im tired of asking my husband how to spell random words and because I'm tired of painting everything with a happy shinny colors, life isnt that way and its time that as a parent I say and do something about it. Before I lose my faith in humanity for being too superficial, competitive and disconnected.
